i want it now

I’m impatient.

I pay attention to what I eat for two days, step on the scale and expect to see movement.

I post to this blog and within hours go check how many people are reading it.

I enter a contest for the first time, and I want to win.

I want results. Immediate results.

I want to stomp my foot like Veruca Salt and wail,

I want it now.

Give it to me now.

I want to jump to the front of the line. I want to bound like the hare. I want to feel like I’ve arrived.

You know where this is going right?

Here’s the kicker. I’m never going to get there. I’m never going to get what I want.

Because by the time I get there, there will only be further to go. And I’ll want to go there.

By the time I get what I want, I’ll want something else.

I can stomp my feet, work harder, be more diligent and even resort to crooning like Morrissey, please, please, please let me get what I want this time.

When my impatience takes over and I’m itching for things to resolve, when I’m speed reading toward the end of a novel, and always looking ahead instead of noticing where I am and how far I’ve come, I need to remember.

Remember that it’s good to be ambitious. It’s okay to want more. But it’s one foot in front of another that will get me there. Faith and a little focus is what I need to get where I want to go.

If you’re starting something new in your life or if you’ve been at it for awhile, I’m sure you know this feeling well.

It sometimes feels impossible to be where you are.

I want today. I want tomorrow.

We’ll get them. Eventually.